Day 4 - Happy New Year's Eve!

I am very proud of myself. I did very well yesterday as far as eating. Last night I started to crave sweets but I was full from dinner and also tired. So when the appropriate time for me to go to bed came I went to bed and completely forgot about my cravings. I still need to drink a little more water but I have cut down my soda intake drastically since day 1. I actually woke up early this morning and ate a decent breakfast. I haven't been exercising yet but I have been working which burns calories. It seems I have come down with a mild cold as well so I feel like doing nothing but unfortunately I still have to work. The beginning is always rough but I have so much support that I feel that this time I will make the weight come off.


I wish all of you who read my blog a very happy and lucky new year to come!! 2012 is the year!!

Day 3

I did it again. Last night after work I came home and ate a late dinner since I worked during dinner hours. I did so good all day too! Again, I had some cake. I can't wait until it is all GONE! I said to myself it's my birthday cake so I can have some! Wrong. It may be mine but the only thing it's gonna do to me if I keep it up is add the pounds on. I can't wait until payday so I can get a few healthy snacks to keep in the house.

But then again payday isn't going to be very exciting. I've been averaging around 12 hours making minimum wage. I received my new schedule yesterday and I only have 7 hours that week. 7 hours!?! Seriously!?! How do they expect me to survive??? I am so tired of living from paycheck to paycheck :( So I woke up this morning and began my job search once again.

Anyways, I'm not going to let stress deter me from losing this weight. I'm tired of looking in the mirror wondering what the skinny me would look like. That's going to change in 2012! One way or another I will feel better about the way I look by the end of next year.

Ugh!

Yesterday I did really well until night came. I realize that's when I eat the most because I get really bored. What else is there to do, right? Once night came I really started to crave the sweets. I was doing good telling myself "no" and that it wasn't going to help me lose weight, and then I caved. I had a piece of cake. Immediately afterwards I just wanted to cry and felt sick to my stomach. I became very upset, and I am still upset today but I realize I am only human. Today is a brand new day, and with my re-newed confidence I will jump right back on the band wagon. I wasn't going to post about it but I realized I had to make myself accountable for my what I did.

Some More Motivation Thrown My Way

So I just got off the phone with my sister. She invited me to go to Florida with her and her little family in July! I am super excited about this because I adored Florida the one and only time I went 10+ years ago. I see this as a motivational tool as well. I have approximately 7 months to shed some pounds so I can keep up with my niece and nephew when we go to the Disney theme park next year!

To New Beginnings...

With the new year around the corner I decided it was time to create a new me. Not so much a new me mentally, but a new me physically. For as far back as I can remember I have always been overweight and uncomfortable with my body. I am ready to change that feeling.

Today I weight approximately 223 pounds. I found out earlier this morning that my ideal weight for my height is between 106 and 133 pounds. Finding out that I am nearly 100 pounds heavier than I should be was completely terrifying. I have a very long ways to go, but I realize that is an unrealistic goal. For now, I plan on taking things slow until I can afford to buy the proper foods that I should be eating; however, I can still make healthy choices now. 

Yesterday I joined an online support group on Facebook. Women who want or need to lose weight belong to that group and we are going to support each other through this difficult feat. With the help of these women, my friends, and my family I have no doubt that this coming year will be the year I finally reach my goal.